Working on the CD

Yesterday my Kickstarter project went "live". That means the path to recording my first Christian CD has been entered. After more than 20 years, my dream of recording this ablum (sic by design) is finally within sight, and it has been a very long road to get here. Many of the delays in getting to this point have been of my own doing. In so many ways I self-sabotaged the process out of fear and doubt. But, I also believe these things happen in God's time, not our own, and I believe this is the time God chose from the beginning for this project to come to fruition.

And I have no doubt this is exactly where God wants me and what He wants me doing. Beginning in 2009 when I first began to really work toward the creation of this CD, the enemy has fought me hard. Soon after starting the work, I contracted an infection. Although I lived with the infection for some 10 months before learning about it, I have since learned some startling information about it. Of the 5 bacteria that comprised the infection, one is the bacteria used by Saddam Hussein's germ warfare director, which I later learned is generally fatal. It wasn't until this past Monday I learned that the particular combination of bacteria I had consisted of several bacteria which, on their own, trend to a 90% fatality rate. And that 90% fatality rate is when doctors are fighting the infections: my infection was not treated for over 10 months because no one knew I had the infection or the bacteria. I am truly a walking, talking, living example of God's miracle power.

As I contemplate this project, I begin to realize the enormous responsibility I have accepted: each song is a 5 minute message in which I get to share God's Word with those who hear it. It is an awesome weight to shoulder when you accept the call to minister to God's people. Each and every word must be carefully considered so as to not cause His children to be misled or misunderstand. Every song is an opportunity to encourage, exhort, teach, remind and even chastise; but ultimately each song must reflect the love, grace, mercy and forgiveness God holds for His children.

Because of the fight the devil has brought my way since I first began working to make this CD, I know that it scares him, therefore God must have a very special purpose and goal in mind for this particular group of songs, which also makes me that much more sensitive when selecting the songs to include on the project. Already I had to make a change because I wanted to record a particular song, but I kept hearing another song, as if God was telling me I had to include that one on the song list. As soon as I replaced the original choice with the one God kept bringing out, I got a sense of peace. I know by that I followed Holy Spirit's prompting.

My daily prayer is that God will continue to guide me so that this project reflects all He wants to say to His people through me. My goal is to exhort my brothers and sisters, encourage them and help them understand the teachings and callings of God on their lives and to help them in their walk. My message is to show them not only God's love for them, but my own. And to reassure them they aren't on this journey alone; that someone else faces the same struggles, trials, temptations they do. My desire is to receive prayers from God's people as I continue on this journey, looking forward to that day when all that God has placed on my heart is available for everyone to hear.