I'm Giving Up

I'm finished, done! I will no longer call everyone when no one calls me. If people want to talk to me, they have my number. I am tired of hearing people tell me they love me, they care about me, blah, blah, blah. Their actions prove otherwise. No one calls to see if I'm okay. No one ever calls to ask how my day has been. IF someone calls it's to complain about something, to talk about what's going on in their life, but they don't want to hear about what's going on in mine.

I'm tired of trying to make friends with people who promise they'll call but then my phone never rings. And if I finally break down and call them, I'm interrupting something, or they have something they just have to do, but then they never call back. I'm sick of those people who were friends for a long time but they got mad at something and just ghosted me, then they contact me and say they'll call "tomorrow." But, unlike the musical "Annie," in real life, tomorrow never comes.

I'm tired of feeling like a failure because other people don't do what they say they'll do and then I wind up wondering what's wrong with me!!! Whatever is wrong is obviously with the people who say they'll do something but then never do it and never bother trying to explain why they didn't. They just never call or come by. But, if I see them somewhere they'll be like, "oh, I love you so much. I know I should call but I just never seem to have time." Yet, they have a huge circle of friends they do things with and post about online. It's only me they don't have time for, so they won't have to worry about that, anymore.

I'm sick of being lied to, is what it boils down to. When someone says they love me, but they never call to check on me, they can't love me very much. When I love someone I try to stay in touch with them. I may not be as good about that as I used to be, but the phone lines do work in both directions!